Sinéad O’Connor Still Loves Her Mother Despite Years of Physical and Sexual Abuse
By DAVE QUINN
Sinéad O’Connor made an emotional appearance on the season 16 premiere of Dr. Philon Tuesday, breaking into tears while detailing the years of horrifying physical, sexual and emotional abuse she suffered at the hands of her late mother, Marie.
But among the many revelations in the heart-breaking hour was O’Connor’s insistence that she doesn’t hold resentment towards her mother, and has even forgiven the woman for the abuse.
“I hate not being able to love her,” O’Connor said of Marie — who died in a car crash in 1986 when O’Connor was just 19 years old. “I hate not being able to take care of her, maybe give her some love back. And help her, nobody helped her. I hate that I can’t put my arms around her and tell her I love her and tell her she’s all right and mother her. I would have taken care of her because she’s an absolute monster.”
“I miss her horribly and I really ache for her,” O’Connor continued. “I think that’s part of where my suicidal instinct comes from — is that I want my mother. I cannot wait for the day when I actually get to heaven so that I can see my mother again. I’d throw myself on her like a monkey and I’d tell her, ‘I love you, I miss you so bad.’”
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